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It could be worse, right?

February 27th, 2008 · 11 Comments

I really want to write something funny today, something lighthearted and a little bit…well, lighthearted. Because lighthearted, I ain’t at the moment, and I’m thinking (hoping, wishing) it might be a self-fulfilling prophecy.

So yes. I want to tell a story about me, perhaps describe a time in which I accidentally, publicly humiliated myself. There are so many stories to choose from…

Like the time in 1986 when I spent a week performing with The Children’s Dance Theater in Washington D.C. and we stayed in cabins at the El Gonquian National Forest. I was sixteen, that dangerous age of thinking I was all-knowing and Super Cool when really? I was just Super Geeky and Super Self-Conscious while pretending to be Super Self-Confident. After a long day of rehearsals, the group of us changed out of dance clothes for a late afternoon party. And it was to this party that I wore my oldest and very favorite t-shirt without a bra and without realization—until it was discreetly pointed out to me by my male dance teacher—that there was a hole in said shirt, strategically worn through directly over my pale left nipple. MORTIFIED doesn’t even begin to describe the feeling with which I slinked back to my cabin and remained until the next morning, unable to look my teacher in the eyes for the rest of the trip.

I wanted to write something like that (and I’m glad I just did since I wasn’t sure I had it in me at the moment) but I’m busy feeling sorry for myself today. I’m not getting a whole lot better here and, in fact, spent yesterday in an intimate embrace with first my toilet and then my shower drain as I alternately vomited and then displayed other nifty side effects from the antibiotic my body currently appears to be rejecting. Lucky me, I get to go back to the doctor tomorrow for additional chest X-rays and who-knows-what-else.

I feel like an old man resigned to a La-Z-Boy future, pack of smokes on the side table, a bourbon in one hand and a remote in the other. He’s greasy with a brillo-textured, five ‘o-clock shadow, brownish-yellow teeth, a stretched out wife beater complete with cola-stains and dark orange pit rings and he insists on wearing dumpy blue boxer shorts with a fly that just won’t stay shut. In other words, I’m feeling Super Sexy.

At least my nipple’s not hanging out in public. There’s that to be grateful for.

Tags: Life

11 responses so far ↓

  • 1 Cheri // Feb 27, 2008 at 4:55 pm

    Oh, Sweetie. Here’s a hug from me to you, and I don’t even mind hugging you with your orange pit stains and greasy hair, that’s how much I *HEART* you.

    I hope you feel better soon.

    XOXOXO

  • 2 Beth // Feb 27, 2008 at 5:13 pm

    Oh my goodness, I have vivid memories of, well, intestinal flora disturbances caused by antibiotics, and they ain’t pretty. You have my sympathy and wishes for your quick recovery. *hug*

  • 3 Natalie // Feb 27, 2008 at 6:44 pm

    Oh, I feel you. I don’t think I have it half as bad as you - at least not bad enough for me to put up with the student health runaround long enough to actually SEE a doctor - but I have spent a decent amount of time in the past few days intimately studying my bathroom tiles. Last night, thoroughly dehydrated and convinced I was delirious, I was in the process of wondering who to call to take me to the hospital, and if I could even go to the hospital with my shitty student health insurance. I guess the later was a clue that I wasn’t quite so delirious, so I ended up taking some aspirin and falling back asleep on my sweat-soaked sheets. Ugh, I hate being sick.

  • 4 Mrs. G. // Feb 27, 2008 at 9:35 pm

    This reminds me of (Seinfeld) Elaine’s nipple Christmas card.

    I’m sorry you feel so wretched. I hope tomorrow is better.

  • 5 joe // Feb 27, 2008 at 11:11 pm

    Hey, Nip –

    Hope you get on the right antibiotic track tomorrow and heal up quick!

  • 6 stacy // Feb 27, 2008 at 11:29 pm

    oh, girl, I miss you so. I wish I was there to make you a cuppa soup (or something) and sit on the couch, petting your pretty hair and entertaining Ruby until you felt better.

  • 7 Prof. J // Feb 28, 2008 at 7:48 am

    Feel better soon.

  • 8 Kim // Feb 28, 2008 at 8:17 am

    :(

    I’m so hoping you feel better soon.

    Sleep, rest, sleep, nap… if you can.

  • 9 Jenn // Feb 28, 2008 at 11:59 am

    oh man… I am so glad I am not you today.
    which makes me think of the quote from Nacho Libre, “It sucks to be me right now”

  • 10 Tammy // Feb 28, 2008 at 1:14 pm

    I’m so sorry you’re still sick. I hope you feel better soon!!

  • 11 sheryl // Feb 28, 2008 at 2:46 pm

    Hey there woman
    I love the site so I come here often but don’t comment much (sorry about that).

    I was recently ill and it can do such a number on how you feel emotionally. I hear you on that one and hope you get better, pronto.

    I saw this article this morning and it made me think of you immediately, (Thank you for the post where you linked to the Salon article re: being a woman and struggling with the choice between Obama and Hillary)

    http://www.boston.com/bostonglobe/editorial_opinion/oped/articles/2008/02/28/its_the_metaphysics_stupid

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