I’m feeling a little bit like Holly Golightly’s cat—the poor slob, slob without a name—and anyone who knows me, knows that I don’t do cats. That’s just not how I roll. (No offense to any cat lovers out there.)
I’m low. Like, submerged-face-down-in-thick-mud kind of low and I have been for the better part of the week. There are reasons for it and no reasons for it simultaneously; a funk that lacks excuses but has a distinct morphology that looks exactly like bleh with raisins all over it (thank you, Dorothy Parker). Getting out of bed has been a task as difficult as my three month battle with Sparkletts over a billing error, and staying out of bed has proved to be an equally daunting challenge. I’ve been trying to slither through to the other side, where I can walk upright again.
Today, I Googled the following video clip and startled myself by the strange sound that came out of my face as I watched it. The sound was laughter. This is a good sign.
Right now, I have the french doors in the dining room open wide as I sit with the noise of my keyboard and day time quiet. It’s sunny out and the temperature is somewhere around perfect farenheit, for which San Diego is famous. Birds are singing, the wind is breezing. And I laughed.
Things will get better. They always do.
12 responses so far ↓
1 Jenn @ Juggling Life // Mar 13, 2008 at 11:30 am
I’m in the computer lab at school, with no headphones, so I can’t watch now. But I believe that just might be Elaine Benes dancing? If so, I get the laughter.
I hope things look up soon.
2 carrie // Mar 13, 2008 at 11:31 am
Sweet Fancy Moses… hope you’re feeling better soon.
3 Smalltown Mom // Mar 13, 2008 at 12:51 pm
I needed that! Thank you! Hope your bleh moves on.
4 Erin // Mar 13, 2008 at 12:55 pm
Hi Aaryn - hope you feel better. I just read your entire blog at work today after searching for ‘cute hair’ on flickr and coming across your pictures. It was the best 2 hours I’ve ever spent. Thanks for making my day go by quicker!
5 Tiara // Mar 13, 2008 at 2:18 pm
Hah, that even got a laugh out of me…stuck in the blehs of a chest infection and viral flu on top of last week’s cold (what can I say, when I get sick I get REALLY sick!).
Hope the sunny weather seeps into your bones and takes the blehs away… A good dose of Sienfeld clips can’t hurt any! ;-P
6 amelia // Mar 13, 2008 at 5:15 pm
I’ve had my ups and downs lately myself. Take the laughs anywhere you can find them. Do you have netflix? We watched “Smiley Face” the other day. Pure, silly fun. I think I might have to buy it and slap an Rx label on it: Watch as needed for (mental) pain.
Hugs.
7 Cheri // Mar 13, 2008 at 5:15 pm
I hope the mean reds go away and never come back.
I dance like that so I don’t think it’s funny.
8 Prof. J // Mar 14, 2008 at 4:57 am
I haven’t seen the clip yet–I’m at work–but I am glad to hear you may be coming out of your funk. Here’s to laughter!
9 Jamie // Mar 14, 2008 at 12:37 pm
Ahhh, I *knew* there was a clinical name for what I’m feeling, and I do believe “Bleh” is just it.
French doors open with San Diego pouring into my life too. Cheers to that!
10 Mrs. G. // Mar 14, 2008 at 2:29 pm
I’ve been wallowing in the pale pinks, so I feel for you. Does it help to go sit in the sunshine? Feel better and get put some Seinfeld seasons on your Netflix queue.
11 claire // Mar 16, 2008 at 5:00 pm
When I feel like this I watch Sooty clips. Sooty and Sweep always cheer me up (and crack me up too … ah that little bear slays me!)
12 VeloCC // Mar 17, 2008 at 4:06 am
I know how you feel. I have been battling that over the most part last year. I found a a few great ways to deal with it that are too private to share here, but one thing I started doing is writing down two nice things a day that happened to me that day and I was amazed that through all that bad stuff, I could see the light….
And someone really dear to me said:”we are all broken, that is what let’s the light in…”
I am sending you big rays of light!!!!!!
Love you Aaryn!!
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